Tuesday, November 23, 2010

amazing creation.

You know you live in Oregon when you walk on crunchy leaves one day and snow the next day. Needless to say I strongly think that my campus is gorgeous and I'm utterly amazed by its beauty daily. I always feel so small when I see God' creation. I'm literally in awe of how much beauty is from God. He loves us so much and allows us to be surrounded by his amazing creation. I am so thankful for the changing seasons and his overwhelming beauty that is so apparent! Now, this snow is taunting me and making me want Christmas so badly and it's not even thanksgiving yet! But I'm going to enjoy this wonderful weather anyway:)

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Happy Birthday Best Friend!

Venisa Darlene Troyer, Happy 20th Birthday to you!

We have been celebrating our birthdays together for years and now that we are both going to different schools it's alot harder to do that. But no matter what I will always be so thrilled for her birthday if we are apart or not!

Nisa is such a beautiful woman of the Lord and she is so encouraging and loving to anyone she meets!

I am so thankful that she has been such a big part of my life! She has helped me through tough situations and awkward ones, and she always helps to create amazing eventful memories!
I love her so much and I would not be fully me if she hadn't been there.

Nisa you are always loved by me and our wonderful God:)

2 Decades Old.

I'm 20! I'm getting so old! 

This year I felt so completely and incredibly blessed by my God and my friends. I had been trying to plan a little something for my birthday this year and I was excited about it but it really just hadn't felt like my birthday yet. Little did I know that my friends had something different in mind. 

We just got back from Intervarsity's Fall conference, which was incredible by the way. So I was already feeling blessed by God because he yet again showed me how great he is, how awesome his love for me and that I am apart of his amazing plan for us!

So I was just hanging out in the afternoon and my roommate Kelly had to leave for work super abruptly, and I so I decided a birthday nap would be good. I then headed over to my friend Krystal's house to paint nails and have some girl time. Dara spoiled me and did me all up, Steph gave me the best present as always and the girls all got excited with me before we were all about to head out. 

The plan was we were all going to go out for desserts. So we leave and I mean it's taking Kelly forever to get going. First she leaves her purse, then she can't find her phone and then of course she has to call someone. Finally we are on our way but we have to make a stop to pick up my friends Danny and G.J. Well we get there and I ask "Why is it so dark inside?" oh silly me, we open the door and SURPRISE!
I have THE best friends in the world! Well, I am pretty gullible but they pulled off an amazing birthday party and I really can't thank them all enough!

I am so blessed by the people in my life and I am so glad that I get to be apart of their life!

So ya I'm 20 and I'm excited to see what the next decade holds.

OH and I almost forgot! 
Thanks everyone for singing to me more than enough times:)

Friday, October 8, 2010

Coming Home.

The start of the year always brings new neighbors, new classes and new fallen leaves. It's been exciting moving back into the dorms again, seeing old friends and being apart of a great community.
Langley, B.C.
As much as I love getting to know new people, I dread one certain question. It's probably one of the most asked questions ever and I think I get asked it almost everyday. So here it is, "Where are you from?"
It drives me crazy because my answer can't be explained by a word or even one sentence. It's complicated and I guess you could say I get frustrated explaining it all the time.
However with that, here is my typical answer.
"I'm kind of from Corvallis. I graduated from Santiam Christian.
Tacoma, WA
But wait that's not all, my parents just moved to Tacoma, WA a year ago but I've never lived there. You see my dad is a pastor so my family moves around alot. I was born in Salem, raised in Albany and then I moved to Canada when I was six. I lived in Langley, BC for eight years and then I moved back to Albany in the 8th grade.  I then went to west Albany high school and then transferred to Santiam Christian in Corvallis. So technically I'm from Corvallis."
Corvallis, OR
So there is my complicated story. I can't say that I'm from Corvallis because my parents live in Washington, but I'm not from Washington either.
You can now see my dilemma.
The GOOD NEWS is that my true home is with God, in his kingdom, in Heaven! I am his child and I am an alien to this world. I belong to his family and one day I will be home with him.
So, for now wherever God leads my heart, that is where my home will be. I've just got to keep trusting in him to use me wherever I go, because this world is my temporary home:)

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

everlasting water.

"Have faith in me, and you will have life-giving water flowing from deep inside you, just as the scriptures says" John 7:38

{white rock, b.c.)
       I can't tell but I think that maybe God has been hinting something at me this summer. Perhaps he's been hinting with the longing I have for water on a hot, hot day, or for being soaked during a water fight at work. Maybe it's been in the beauty of the pudget sound or the beautiful lakes and the ocean I laid by on vacation. With every drop of water, God has been catching my attention. 
        My family takes walks often by the pudget sound and I love the calming and peace that it brings me. It always captivates me and I continue to stare out at the never ending waters for far too long. My entire summer vacation was wrapped around water. My family went to visit Canada, which was amazing by the way, and we camped at our favorite spot on Vancouver Island and hung out at the beach for days. We also drove hours to spend time on the lakes of the Okanogan and they were beautiful. 
{white lake, b.c.}
        At my mission trip earlier this summer, God had given me two visions. One was of me laughing in the pouring rain and the other was a bowl of water. After praying about it for quite some time, God gave me a final vision of me holding the bowl of water to catch the rain. God had been telling me that his living water is always there at my reach and to take it and go drench someone else with new life and love. 
{pudget sound, wa}
I'm so grateful that he has been reminding me about his incredible waters. Just like I have craved a glass of water and have stared forever at the pudget sound, I have realized that's how I crave the love of Jesus. I'm always wanting more and it keeps me in awe all the time. I'm excited for how the water he has given me will take affect as the summer starts to ends and the year begins.
Remember just reach out because He's eternal life is yours to take and it will quench your thirst forever.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Monday, July 5, 2010

New eyes, new life.

First off I want to thank all of you who supported me financially and prayerfully. You all made a huge effort in getting me to summit and I can't thank you enough! Without you and Jesus of course, I wouldn't have had such an amazing and life changing experience.
 If you couldn't already tell summit was amazing! Not only did I gain amazing new relationships with my friends in IV(Intervarsity Christian Fellowship), but I gained an entire new perspective of how I look at the world and how I want to live in it.

We studied in Acts and learned how to live in a community that eats together, prays together and does everything else together. We learned to live simply and realized that we actually can survive with the bare necessities and that we don't really need the things that we want. Who seriously needs to have every new material possession? If you think about it you will be able live without it, I promise you.

We spent our days at work cites as we served the homeless, the lonely, and the hurting in Portland. I was able to serve at a women's shelter and it was such a delight to see how much hope and joy that those women had because they had wonderful women there who truly took care of them and some of them even claimed to have Jesus. We gave them pedicures one day and I can't even express what a joy it was to clean their feet and learn about their stories. Oh and they were so cute as the next day they all showed off their new pretty toes and flip flops.

God really opened our eyes to see that the poor and the weak have hearts too. I now find myself not as quick to judge others and I'm wanting to give a smile and a hug to all who need it. We evangelized a couple afternoons or as we call it "treasure hunting". The experience was incredible as we listened to God and he literally showed us where to go and pray for people. It was crazy seriously crazy and I want to keep treasure hunting as much as I can. 

We worshiped and prayed quite a bit. We learned what it meant to listen in prayer and receive visions from God. We also participated in healing prayer and many people's pains vanished by the wonders of God. Goodness, I don't think I'll underestimate the power of prayer again.

Honestly, during the whole experience it was hard not to experience information overload as we studied God's word, learned from Mother Teresa and Shane Claiborne, and saw huge racial segregation and discrimination problems still occurring in Oregon. I took much from Summit and I have and am still planning on living life much differently.
I'm scared that I will fall back into my old ways of wanting this and that and being selfish about my problems, etc. But I know that God and my community has my back as I thrive to live like Jesus. I'm no longer just a Christian, just a Pastor's Kid, or a goody goody, I AM A CHRIST FOLLOWER. 

P.S. please ask me if you would like to hear more about my trip because I would love to tell you more stories:)

Sunday, June 13, 2010

endings & beginnings

Summertime has finally come and the books have been closed. 
It's time for my brain to take a break and for my skin to bronze.

It seemed like this term was never ending and that finals week was taking its sweet time to leave me waiting in anticipation to be free from school. But good news today was my first day of summer! I'm so happy that my first year of college is over and I'm looking forward to the next three! I love OSU and God has got some great plans for me coming up, I just know it.

Tomorrow I'll be heading out to Summit for my Portland mission trip.I'm a bit nervous and honestly don't feel rested of prepared for it but I know that God has something up his sleeve. I will be there for two weeks without phone or my family but I'll have my friends and God's amazing love, which is an exceptional trade if you ask me! I'm going in without much information of any expectations and I'm going to commit it all to God. I'll be updating you all about my trip when I get back. Until then, be blessed by God and know that He loves you more than you could ever know! 
Enjoy the sunshine and God's glory and grace:)

Thursday, May 27, 2010

grateful, enthused, fortunate, thrilled, thankful, joyful!

At this moment, I can just picture God laughing at me as I'm completely filled with excitement over a summer job. You see, all this last term I have been under a lot of stress as I try to apply for jobs, scholarships and get through the last bit of school as I dream of summer and freedom.
I was disappointed as I wasn't hired back to Tadmor again but it was really God's way of telling me that I needed to go to Summit. Summit is a mission trip that I will be going on after school ends for two weeks. It is with Intervarsity Christian Fellowship and we will be serving homeless in Portland and I'm thrilled!
I'm pretty sure that is where God wants me to be because he has removed every obstacle that was in my way of getting there.
First he crossed out Tadmor that wouldn't have let me make the trip at all.
Then I had no money, and in three days I fund-raised it all! By they way thanks everyone for contributing your support, it helped so much!
Then, the final obstacle, my dream job. I had the perfect job lined up at the YMCA in Tacoma where my mom, sister and our most lovely neighbors worked. I would be a day camp counselor and play around with little kiddos all summer, which is absolutely what I love! However, I didn't get the job. I prayed about it and thought wow goodness God you really want me to go to summit, because the job would have required me to leave summit a week early. So it's been a couple weeks since that happened and I've just been trying to put all my trust in God that he would provide me a job. So just the other night I said okay here God take this stress and I trust you'll come through.
So yesterday I was walking out of my last midterm and I had a miss call from washington which was kinda funny. Sure enough the YMCA day camp had called me back. I called back to see what all the fuss was about and you'll never guess, they offered me the job because a spot opened up! I squealed, jumped and screamed as soon as I got off the phone! Oh and the best part is, they are totally cool with me missing the first bit of camp and want me to go to summit! I'm so filled with excitement and God is so good! He really does provide! Silly me, all I needed to do was trust in Him and everything worked out! Now all I have to do is get through stinking finals.
God is great, trust in Him for he works everything out for good for those who love Him:)

Ecclesiastes. 3:11
"Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God’s work from beginning to end."

Romans 8:28
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."

Thursday, May 13, 2010


 "1 Do not fret because of evil men or be envious of those who do wrong;2 for like the grass they will soon wither, like green plants they will soon die away.3 Trust in the LORD and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.4 Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart.5 Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him and he will do this:6 He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun" Psalm 37:1-6

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

In honor of Mothers

This last weekend was mothers day. Which if I weren't spending the day celebrating my mom, this post would have been up much sooner. Yet, I still want to honor my mom and all other mothers in the world, whether you have been one for quite a while or will be one in the far future. God has called us to be women of God and we must strive to live for Him in that way.
I admire my mom so much and every time I read Proverbs 30, I think of her. So truly has the characteristics and the heart of a woman after the Lord. I love her dearly and I hope some day I will be a good mother just as she is.
In honor of my mom, I wrote her a song. Enjoy and strive to be all that God has made you to be!

Thursday, May 6, 2010

one amazing dad.

On this day, May 6th 2010. 
Is my wonderful daddy's birthday!
He is wise and full of compassion for God's people.
His heart is on fire for our Lord. He takes good care
of me and gives me things I don't deserve. He is faithful
to my mom and is proud of my sister and I. He knows 
just what to do to make me laugh and he knows
what to say to me in life decision moments. He is lovable and incredibly joyful.
He knows whats best for me and I'm so thankful for him.
He is a great picture of our Father in heaven and I'm forever grateful for him.
I love you Daddy!

Beloveds please be loved.

God has given us love before we even knew of Him. He calls us to love others just as He loves us. I am so thankful for the wonderful people that he has placed in my life. So here's to you all who have encountered my life and have shown me God's love and helped me grow more in Him.

Courtney Baby
{she be my sister}
Her smile always brings me pure joy, her strength is incredible 
and her pursuit for God is outstanding. She's a wee one of 15 
but she's changing the world one laugh at a time.

 Rosalia Ann
{my coffee addict twin} 
We met by fate in an HDFS link class,now we 
are inseparable. She's my go to girl,her 
happiness is addicting, and her servants heart
is amazing. I love you my dear Rosebud!

Venisa Nisa
{the best friend} 
We've been best friends for five years
now and I wouldn't be me without her. 
Her heart is full of love and care for 
others and she's no quitter. Nisa is beautiful 
inside and out. God is taking her places.

Bridget girl
{tadmor bestie}
Oh this girl is full of energy.
She is brilliantly on fire for 
God,and she will do great things for him.
Bridget is amazing and has taught me 
much & always knows how to make me laugh.


{my mac to my cheese}
Distance my be between us, but it wont 
break us apart. Kelsey is a strong 
lover of Christ and is devoted
to anything she does. We are one in
the same person and always seem to be 
going through the same thing. She
is completely lovely!


{my washingtonian}
Steph and I have known each other 
just this first year of college. We
have been there for each other and 
survived our first year together. She 
aims for perfection and she amazes me.
Her caring heart is wonderful, I love her!

Kit, Ryan, Danny, Michael, Matt, Greg
{da boys}
I met this group of boys the first
day of college. I have now hung with
them almost everyday since then.
They are warriors for God and
their hearts are for serving His Kingdom.
Thanks for making my first year a memorable
one and for being the brothers I never had.

                  Jonathan, Morgan and Jamison
{camp brothers}
These boys are full of life
and love for God and others. 
They have helped me through alot 
and have given me good brotherly love.
You're the best. 


Tuesday, May 4, 2010


Hello Beautiful children of God. I just wrote a song just now about how amazing our heavenly father is. I'm hoping to record it someday, sometime soon. God has given me a gift of song writing, and I know that it would be a sin to keep that gift from you, so I'm no longer hiding my secret poems, but I'm sharing them so that you too can see how great God is! I pray that you will be blessed day in and day out in good times and bad!
 You’re good
You're good
Lord we cant get enough of you

You're true
You’re true
No one can live up to the things you do

We’re in awe
We’re blown away by you

We adore you
For your glory
We live for you
Praise your name
Your love is great
We love and worship you

Cant keep quiet
we got to shout it out
to the world to the world
you’re the one we care about
mustn’t keep still
raise our hands up high
to the heavens to heavens
we breathe only for you

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

The Time Is Now

I have currently been obsessed with this song by Phil Wickham, who is one of my favorites. In fact this song has been on repeat for about a day or two. The songs message hit me hard. We can't wait till tomorrow and put off serving God and loving others. We are promised today and we don't need to worry about the future. So let us love now and keep God our number one priority day after day.

The battle line is drawn, it’s all in black and white.
Hope is pulling forward, can feel it from behind, it’s time.
It’s time to make a move, so what will you decide?
The clock is ticking on, don’t let it pass you by, it’s time.
It’s time.

The time is now, for lifting souls.
The time is now, for letting go.
From your skin, to your core.
Let light, and love, come rushing through the door.
Oh, come rushing through the door.

You’ve learned every song, memorized the verse,
took the bread and wine, and even bought the shirt,
it’s time.
it’s time to hold your shield,
it’s time to draw your sword,
let’s lead the resistance,
oh Lord, oh Lord, oh Lord, it’s time.
Yeah it’s time.

The time is now, for lifting souls.
The time is now, for letting go.
From your skin, to your core.
Let light, and love, come rushing through the door.
It’s time to make a stand, to put your heart in greater hands,
from your skin, to your core,
Let light, and love, come rushing through the door.

Sisters, Brothers, thieves, and lovers,
come on, come on, eternity
turn your faces, with fine eyed places,
heaven’s grace will set you free.

The time is now, for lifting souls.
The time is now, for letting go.
From your skin, to your core.
Let light, and love, come rushing through the door.
It’s time to make a stand, to put your heart in greater hands,
from your skin, to your core,
Let light, and love, come rushing through the door.
Oh, come rushing through the door…

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Trust leads to Joy

"Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him." Matt. 6:8

Sometimes when we have no idea what we are getting into, we just have to trust God.
Going into this last weekend, I had no idea what I was supposed to be expecting of my bible leaders retreat. I arrived and excitedly met all the Intervarsity bible leaders from OSU, U of O, Willamette, PSU, and Reed. We started off with what was to be expected, worship, a bible study and silly games. Oh and I forgot to mention I was in a showdown at the end of an eating relay and I won by finishing off on saltine crackers, it was pretty epic.

I could already feel God at work as we all headed off to bed and I just knew he was up to something. The next morning, I woke up to the blaring sound of "The Final Countdown," not only was this not the most pleasant song to wake up to, but it was 5 A.M! As quick as we could, we got ready and were ready for our "mission." Our goal was to find our breakfast on OSU campus and then to race to the top of a lookout point called "Bald Hill." So my team raced out to the car as we were headed toward the covered bridge. I was thrilled when I found the bag that said "looking for this?" and knew I had found our breakfast. We then proceeded to split up the plentiful breakfast and made our trek up the steep and long hill. We all joined together at the top to see the sunrise, praise Jesus in worship, and eat our wonderful breakfast together.

I must have been so high on Jesus that day because never once was I tired, even though I was running on 4 hours of sleep. Seeing his beauty and creation was worth it all.
Through the rest of the day, we learned how to lead bible studies and really rely on God and community. Before the weekend, I didn't know if I was a good enough leader and I was really nervous to lead a bible study next year. But now God has given me the confidence I need and a wonderful partner in crime, Kelly!

I'm so hyped up on God and I cant wait to spread his word. I don't want to wait to share about his love till next year. I want to start now and let his love resound everywhere.
So just put your trust in Him and He will bless you in ways that you would have never imagined. He knows what you need and He smiles upon your face.

View from Bald Hill

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Little things.

There's nothing like a hot shower and cuddling up in the covers after a long day. The weather was beautiful, serving God is wonderful, community and new friends are amazing and nature is incredible. It's finally beginning to look like spring.

My day started off with intentions to wake up early and get some studying done but like always, that idea went out the window as I slept in. In the late morning I served at a free car wash which was a great experience as we served others and loved them with God's love and after many laughs, almost losing my voice and getting each other wet, the car wash came to a close.

The rest of my delightful day consisted of a bbq, getting to know new friends and playing in the park. Ah I just love the feeling of a lazy afternoon, where being in good company and sunshine is all you need and its okay to be lazy even if there is studying to be done. Dinner came late and coffee and adventures were calling our names.

So on an adventure we went. We headed out to chip ross park in corvallis. Unknown to us of how far a trail it was, we didn't exactly wear proper foot wear. So we went along slipping in the muddy trail in flip-flops by the light of our cellphones. However, the mud was worth it, as the view at the top was pretty incredible if I do say so myself. You could see almost the entirety of corvallis. The city lights have always been beautiful in my eyes and the stars above us continually keep blowing my mind. The peacefulness set in as we all cuddled up on a bench and took it all in. Conversations took different turns and as we looked out with thoughts about how big our city really looked. Then, we started to figure out all the roads and different building and intersections and remembered that we lived in a small college town.

Nevertheless, the experience was great and I am happy to be back in my own warm bed after a nice long wonderful day. It seems that I'm finding the little things in life bring me much joy. I'm incredibly thankful for people, those who I'm close to and strangers who smile as you pass on the street. A little sunshine turns my mood right around, nature tends to make my jaw drop, peace is good to my soul, food is awesome when you're starving, and God continues to teach me everyday.

I love life and nice long lazy spring days like I had today.
But now I shall lay my sleepy little head to rest, the coffee has now faded and it's getting late. So I shall drift into dream land and pray God grants me a sweet dream and another sunny day tomorrow.

Monday, February 15, 2010


I'm in love, with Jesus that is. Recently this past week I was preparing myself to be prepared for "happy single awareness day" as I was hoping not to feeling lonely. However, my thoughts, feelings, and emotions changed drastically. The Christian college group, I'm in, called Intervarsity had a conference in Portland this weekend. I went into it expecting something crazy to happen among everyone there, little did I know that something was going to happen in me.
A few people prayed for my sprained foot many times and by the power of prayer and our amazing healing God, my foot feels 90% better! Then it was time for God to heal my heart. The last session was about the prodigal son. The Speaker gave two invitations, the first was to accept Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior and two people stood up, praise the Lord! The second invitation was to receive pray as a reminder that we are God's children and that we are loved. I was hesitant to stand and go get prayer, but before I knew it my heart was pounding in my chest and I couldn't stop the tears from falling. I realized that I have been focusing so much on making sure my friends knew how much that God loved them, that I had forgotten that God loved me too. You, see the speaker was describing the older son in the story had felt like a failure and a worker to his father, but the father reminded him that he was his son and no failure. I had been feeling the need to be perfect for God and most of that comes from the expectations put on me because I am a pastor's kid. I'm always striving to do the right thing for God and I hate it when I fail. However, God reminded me this weekend that He loves me so much and that when I fall he catches me and loves me because I am his daughter.
As valentines day approached at the end of the weekend, I was full of love and joy. God healed me and took my pain away, I was completely overflowing with His love and I wanted everyone to know about it. Valentines day wasn't lonely or painful like I had expected it to be, it was full of love from my Father. So I'm inlove with my Jesus all over again!

"When you pass through waters, I will be with you, and when you pass through rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk though the fire, you will not be burned, the flames will not set you ablaze." Isaiah 43:2

"Even youths grow tired and weary,and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary,they will walk and not be faint." Isaiah 40:3-31

"In other words, it is not the natural children who are God's children, but it is the children of the promise who are regarded as Abraham's offspring." Romans 9:8

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Picked up from the fall.

Over this past weekend I had a chance to embrace one of my fears, skiing. It was my first time and I was going to put my fears behind me and enjoy God's wonderful nature. However, funny story, I was half way down my first run, on the bunny hill that is, and I was doing alright until...I biffed it. I'm not sure how I accomplished it but somehow I landed faced down with my legs all twisted and my skis flung on both sides of me. I sprained my ankle and now I'm back in daily life trying to make it around on crutches. Haha it's just my luck, maybe later I will try to ski again but for now I'm hobbling around trying not to hurt myself anymore. I've realized through this that I have amazing friends that care so much for me, getting me dinner, carrying me up the stairs and teasing me to make me feel better. I'm not sure why this is apart of God's crazy plan for me but maybe he wants me to take rest and rely on Him only. So it all comes down to just embracing my pain, cause through it all I will be stronger, ha well at least my arms will be:) I'm learning though that it's alright to be scared but it's also good to be fearless and take a risk now and then cause what's the worst that can happen? It's not so bad once you try because God will carry you when you fall.

Monday, February 8, 2010

embrace the moment.

There are too many moments that pass by in life to dismiss and forget about. Some may be memories you will never want to forget, some moments are going to hurt and some moments may catch you off guard. Never have I or will I regret any memory. You must embrace them all as you use each one as another stepping stone in the journey of life. There are many memories that I want to hold onto forever and then there are ones that will forever be there in the back of my mind but I wish would go away. Then there are those moments that many dream about. We wonder what will become of our future, where we will be in ten years from now or fifty years from now. However, I must focus on the here and now and be content with the memories I am currently making. Many times I struggle with the happenings of life and wonder why I ever had to go through tough circumstances but I must embrace them and grow and keeping moving on, one step at a time.
God is my King, He has saved me from this broken and messed up world. Without my Savior, I would be no where in this life. He has saved me time and time again and has loved me through it all. Too many times I have fallen and failed and focused on myself and what I have wanted, instead of worshiping God. However, God knows just how to bring my focus back to Him. It may not always be easy to be convicted by God and to learn how to trust only in Him, but He helps along the way. My God is with me in every moment, He does everything for a reason, so I'm going to embrace every one.